Will writing help?

Today is the day I start to write a quick personal reflection to see if this really works in assisting in dealing with crap news. This of course is going to be tainted as I went for a 7km run today and now on my second or third red wine (ok it is my third!!).  

I was thinking earlier I should start this with a nice Star Trek, Captains Log, Day …. but then thought about it and thought I would just sound like a some sort of geeky nerd. 

Why Today?

Today was the day when I had it confirmed that I have prostate cancer. 

Was this good news or bad news, well it was news that we kind of new already but it was confirmed today thanks to the results of the biopsy I had done last Monday. 

They confirmed that my prostate will be removed and I need another scan done to see if the cancer has spread to any other parts of my body. That is the one I am worried about as if it is all in the prostate, I feel my chances are really good, however if its spread, I am going to need a stronger mindset as that will be shit. 

My main head item for now is the whole coming to terms that I have cancer and that its more serious than I can normally joke away, also that its out of my hands. 

I am not in control of much of it at all, I cannot fix it by doing some exercise, taking some meds or changing my diet, I just have to have it removed (that is not so bad, its an acceptable solution). But it may have spread, which is the real mind F### as it is just the unknown of what to do and what could be done.